Hopeless

As I raised my head to scream into the sky the rain erased the tears stains of my cheek.

"It hurts. I give him 4 yrs of my life and he throws it in the trash. God...

I hate him.

I hate.

Hate.

Love.

I love.

I love him.

WHY DOESN'T THE WORLD MAKE SENSE ANYMORE!"

I collapsed onto the muddy earth below. Sobs are racking through my chest, slowly tearing me apart. The rain, it's cold. Pelting so hard across my pale skin I was surprised the small red ribbons hadn't formed on my skin. The depth of the coldness of the rain had finally caught up to me. My limbs went numb. My vision darkened and finally I blacked out........

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